so things in my head seem to be pretty much back to normal. sometimes you have an idea in your head. you know the idea won’t really ever come to fruition, and the fact that you don’t act towards it keeps you in control. then something comes along and demonstrates to you the complete and utter impossibility of things coming to pass. since things were now OUT of my control, i kind of lost it. it took me a little while to come to terms with it, but now things have settled in my mind and i realize that my reaction was really stupid, and even more frustrating was that i knew i shouldn’t have been upset about the whole thing…which led into a just ever growing feedback loop of frustration and angst. i’ve made some apologies for my behavior and i feel like things are back to a really good place.

tomorrow i’ll be venturing to the beer fest with joshua, corey and rachael. we’ll probably at some point meet up with some of the loafers as well. it should be a really fun time…much love to james at city for hooking me up with the extra ticket.

joshua has spent the good part of this week in NYC, shooting some pictures for a band. i talked with him this afternoon and he seemed like he had a really great time. hopefully he’ll post up a report once he’s back.